I recently had what should have been the perfect weekend. My partner and I went away to stay with his friends for the weekend. The weekend consisted of a lovely walk, seeing the town, gorgeous food, games and a few drinks.
However, I noticed that I was really in my own head all weekend, being negative and self critical. Although I don’t think anyone could tell, I was fully aware. I was only half a person and that can be exhausting.
I am aware that I sometimes find it awkward when I am around people I don’t know too well and I think that had a lot to do with it. I also think I may have just been having a bit of an ‘off’ time recently.
So naturally, I’ve been thinking about where I went wrong and why my self-esteem felt at an all time low.
What I’ve realised is that preparation is key. I should have had some ‘me time’ to go through my expectations of the weekend and what I wanted to give/get. I was going into a situation where I was a bit out of my comfort zone and I let that take over. I also allowed myself to feel inferior on many ocassions (I will discuss further in another post). I need to be extremely mindful of who I am, what I believe and what I can GIVE.
With that being said, I am off to Rome tomorrow where I will be a attending a wedding (bridesmaid!!!). I am going to do a post shortly about goals for the week.
I hope you all have a brilliant Tuesday.